smiling is contagious. so is positivity.

i've wasted so much time whining and crying and complaining. oh there's been lots of reasons. LOTS of reasons for sadness and depression and stress. but i'm tired SO TIRED of letting my worries rule my life. i stress and worry and worry and stress and whine and cry ETC all day and at night. i can't sleep. i let it consume me. NO MORE!!!! please help me, Lord, please help me! i cannot do this on my own. i cannot control the world. all of my worries and problems and stresses are out of my control and out of my hands. i am just one person. that's all. i cannot carry the weight of the world, or even just of my family, all by myself. i'm taking a new outlook on life.

i want to find the positive in things. i want to see the good in things. i have a lot to be happy about. i really do! that is my new mission in life. i want to be happy. i want to ENJOY MY LIFE.

so there. done and decided.

jackson has a new doctor. his allergist is on top of everything. he's going to get better now! i just know it!!!!! i feel we are on the right track now!

this weekend we're going to hang out with mama and eddie for superbowl sunday! and pammie and barbara. and richard! good stuff!

saturday i'm having a girlie spa day with two very dear girlfriends from high school. i'm SO SUPER EXCITED!!!!!!!!!

eric and i have a special night planned for valentine's day!!!! sneaking away from all the kids we live with and spending one night in downtown savannah. and a special dinner out. love.

my face is breaking out. hmm. weird. stress? pms? both prob. clear up skin!!!

my "hair girl" said she'd do finger waves for me for casey's wedding!!! exciteeeeeee!!!!! i got my little birdcage veil too! SQUEAL!!!!

i feel surrounded by love. i love this feeling. maybe i'm having a manic day. maybe my heart grew three sizes today. maybe my heart opened up today?!?!

this is going to be different for me. i'm forver the pessimist. but i'm tired of that. i want to be happy. i want to enjoy. i want to LIVE.

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