so i've been neglecting my blog. not that it's very interesting anyway. lol but i've been so incredibly busy that it's hard to find time to sit down and relax for a few and reflect. but here i am.
so i've been trying to get healthy AGAIN. lol the older you get the harder it gets. that much is for sure. i'm taking belly dancing classes, tai chi, Zumba and next week i am starting a pliates boot camp. plus i'm drinking tons of water and am on a 1200 calorie a day diet. if all of that doesn't whip me into shape then here's no help for me!!! my biggest enemy in the world (besides aging) is cellulite. that shit is the devil. i don't even kid. SHIT SUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS. hate hate hate my legs. i wonder if i will EVER wear shorts again. i'm betting no. not ever.
i'm craving change. especially a change of scenery. and i want to make a better life for us. i'm tired of scraping by. just getting by pay check to pay check. i want to be comfortable and not worry about money all the time. i guess everyone wants that. but we are being pro-active about it. eric getting a second job/career is certainly going to help. God I love him.
i've been focusing on being positive and not sweating the small stuff. and i'm not doing a bad job of it if i do say so myself. :) it's taking a lot of hard work to go from being Negative Nancy to a positive person, but i'm working on it every day! sometimes you have to realize that some things are just out of your control and LET GO. yes, those words just came form ME. hahahaha!!!!
i need to see the beaches of daytona. lol being there gives me so much peace. it is truly a happy place for me. one day!!!!
casey's wedding is getting closer and closer all the time. and an awesome vacay is attached to that!! looking forward to both FOR SURE.
i have so much time to myself these days with johnny and eric in emt school and the card games they go to on friday nights. it's so weird. i have actually become my own person. i miss eric a lot right now because we are spending a bunch of time apart. but i'm keeping myself busy and making new friends! it's all good. :)
i've seen a lot of mama and eddie and i like that.
visits with mema get sadder all the time. don't even want to elaborate.
i need to win the lottery...guess i need to play first. hahaha! so sick and tired of money problems. one day it will be different!!!!!!!
elena leaves for boot camp in 2 weeks. CRAZY. she and johnny are steadily making future plans. they're all grown up... and that makes me happy, sad and OLD.
jackson is a cranky, moody teenager. bring back my sweet boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
work to do. bills to be paid. life calls....