So my insomnia has started creeping back in. and i'm not one bit happy about it. actually i'm petrified that i'll get back like i was last year when i was so stressed i couldn't hardly ever sleep. at all. last night i lay awake trying to figure out how i'm going to continue to pay for mema's care/how i'm going to pay back the line of credit/what's going to happen when i just flat run out of money or credit/etc. omg. what a horrible night. i got maybe three hours of sleep. if even. ugh. i'm tired and i'm a little depressed about it all. i keep trying to be positive and upbeat...but it's almost impossible given our circumstances. yay my life. well, that part of my life anyway...which is overshadowing everything else right now. UGHHHHH.

my office looks like a war zone. it's never been so bad. i better focus.