that's it. i'd like to make it official. i was halfway kidding before. i'm not goign out of my way to have another holiday/family event at MY house. not happening. i'm not reaching out anymore. lol no one else cares...so neither do i! i think that we will go out of town on every holiday from here on out. now THAT sounds liek a plan. just saying.

i'm fat. i weigh the most i've ever weighed in my life right now. time to get back in control of that. i disgust myself right now. i really and truly do. physically. YUCK. i'm heavier than i was when i delivered either of my children. that's freaking sad. and i'm getting older and my body is really changing. it sucks so bad. my skin is getting flabby and loose. yuck yuck yuck. i'm fixing this problem. at least this is a problem i somewhat have control over!

mine and eric's anniversary is almost here! we're trying to plan a weekend out of town. YAY! i crave getting away from here more and more everyday. and i LOVE spending time with him!!! i love what our relationship has developed into. It's so different. So much better. <3 Yay us. lol

this weekend needs to hurry up and get here!!!!!! it's wedding dress shopping time with casey and the bridesmaids! i am so excited about that!!!!! so excited!!!!!

back to work...