i am so so so sad and depressed. selfish. selfishly sad. i suck. and SO jealous. that makes me suck all the more. ugh.

i'll probably die in hinesville. i don't see any way out. no matter what we do. i'll be bankrupt and in a trailer in hinesville for the rest of my life probably. disgusting. and i'll probably be alone. eric wants nothing more than for us to just get the eff out of hinesville. i'll probably have to file bankruptcy next year. i'm praying for a miracle...but i don't seem to get them. i've BEEN praying for an answer to this situation.

i'm sick. don't feel worth a damn. have to go sit in Court all day today. yay. fml.