so i'm sitting here getting ready for work. running late as hell because i couldn't get off the effing couch AGAIN. and i realized that i haven't made a pot of coffee, cooked a single meal, done any laundry, or basically done ANYTHING. wow. my poor kids. they've really stepped up. poor them. i've got to get back into the swing of things. broken heart or no.

it should be against all of the laws of human nature to hurt this bad. i will never ever let my heart be vulnerable again. never. this is what happens the one time i fully hand it to someone.

...i can't quit thinking about when eric surprised me in vegas and took me to see LOVE. it is honestly one of my all time favorite memories. all time. why can't i just block him out?????????? good and bad. how do you make 8 years of your life go away??? i wish i could.