so let's get the pity party out of the way and try to be positive for a while. yesterday i found my sd card from my previous phone. popped it in and scrolled though the 400+ pics on it while i lay on the couch last night and cried my eyes out. MORE memories to deal with. some of my happiest moments of my entire life involve eric. i mean some big ones. but my heart hurts so bad from him that i wish i could erase everything. that's so sad. but that's how i feel right now.

eric is picking the boys up today to go out toe at and to a movie. weird. i honestly don't know why. but he says he loves and misses them. i don't know. they want to see him and he's been their father figure for 8 years, so i'm not going to deny them that. it's just so weird for me.

tonight ginny and i have a date. :) movie and dinner and drinks. i'm excited!!!!

tomorrow flying lesson. i'm getting more and more scared. but i'm doing it!!!!!!!!!

i have so much work to do and can't concentrate on any of it. blah. i need to go try.